Tell us about the last thing you got excited about.
Awakening this morning, I was excited to remember a dream. It is rare for me to recall one at all, let alone clearly. Here is how I might summarize it:
I was back at university; the grounds were very familiar from the time I was there. I did not know the people but I still see their faces. I was enrolled in a class and I also know I was consistently skipping that class. The semester was drawing to a close and I could “feel” the anxiety rising because of this class; in my mind I had missed too much to make up. I also felt I needed to go to class, admit my failure to attend, and learn from the consequences.
-a dream
While I am no expert in dreams or their interpretation, I do believe that dreams have meaning; I have been hesitant to delve into my dreams, using the excuse I rarely remember them, interpretation is subjective, and that it is challenging work. However, this dream I still see and “feel.” I felt relief and clarity. Could it be I was “meant” to consider this dream?
A meaning began to arise as I rolled the dream around in my consciousness while preparing breakfast today: I am not always showing up for the lessons the universe presents to me daily, moment by moment. When it is not a lesson I want to learn, I avoid it altogether. Truth.
Admitting I have failed to show up seems an invitation (a warning?) to show up. Now. This past failure to show up need not define me; it is past. I can show up now and once again be attentive to the lessons everyday opens to me. I suspect I will continue to receive the same lesson until I actually wake up and show up!
I found all of this exciting because I remembered a dream (a rarity) and it seemed to have meaning, a strong and clear one. Perhaps that is enough. Just the fact this dream became fodder for a blog post and personal reflection certainly has been a gift.
I am at a crossroads in my personal journey. I keep reaching for some magical answer “out there.” My propensity might be to avoid whatever lessons are being offered now (which may require work and be painful) and take the path of least resistance while rationalizing it as “the responsible choice.” The dream has invited me to be attentive and intentional now, to show up for “class” everyday, and trust in the gifts and clarity that comes in the Great Unfolding.
Infinitely Precious 