What have you been putting off doing? Why?
My traditional pattern for living has been to put off everything until the last minute. That way, there is a reason when it is not perfect. The longer and harder I work on a project and the more invested in the outcome I am, the more I identify with the work-product. If the “product” is not “good” or good enough, then I am not “good” or good enough.
“I am” does not equal “I produce.” I previously imagined they were equal. I am now aware that discovering and guarding identity is part of the early life journey; survival instinct requires I balance being unique enough to be necessary to the “tribe” while not being so unique that the tribe shuns me. After all, the tribe gives me life and meaning. It is only after creating that container of identity that I can let go of this self-created self.
Nothing is perfect. Everything is good.
I am pleased to say that, knowing and recognizing this pattern, I can now watch it rise and release it. Mostly. The pattern was self-protective, a way to shield my younger, child-self from the pain of failing. I am thankful for its work. I am also thankful that I have seen the pattern’s influence and no longer need to be protected in that way. These days, I am even thankful for failing!
Nothing is perfect. Everything is good. I will bring my best, such as it is, to every moment. My “best” is unique in every moment. It is connected to time and circumstances in conjunction with Love and Spirit.
I am no longer putting off much. I choose a priority and bring focus there. Then I choose another priority. There will always be some tasks that will not get done and I am okay with that. Mostly.
Infinitely Precious 